actually , last night was a big sadness happen .. it make me can't control my tears ... even I'm strong .. but last I also cry because this .. No one know my true face.... everyday I'm in fake smile for my friends ... maybe you'll guys thinking me always funny , always smile , always like crazy2 .. but , how many people is know when I'm smile but my heart is crying ? No , it almost No .. and also because I didn't tell you'll guys what my feeling too .. my fault :')

I have do many wrong mistake for you'll guys , especially the someone I loved :') .. He's not my couple or boyfriend .. just a close friend .. but he really like my bro and He's I'm care ... worry only one brother .. but last night I was make him angry ... and I know He was hate me right now .. it so damn hate... but never mind it not he's fault .. I know it all my fault .. and I didn't hope that he will forgive me back ...I just want to tell him .. sorry that I always make him angry .. always noise ... I didn't care he's feeling then mad him .... and He was have a sickness but I still make he angry .. I'm so shitty .. I know I always sorry is useless .. but I still want tell he that I really really love him as like my truly brother .. :')

and I also need to thanks someone that always support me ... always touching me .. always make me smile and tell me that I'm strong girl .. :'D She's my sister in law ... my cutie sister .. 'Addy' , I really really need to said with you thanks you so much sis .. even how I''m no in mood .. you still will touching me any time .. any moment when I'm sad .. However if I lose you in my life... I think I can't smile any more .. I can't live without you :') I love you my big cute sister :')

Actually , I need to talk about my feeling , but it wrong topic already right ? haha .. I also don't know why I will suddenly write like that , maybe I sot already .. hoho , okey .. lastly I just need a time to rest .. my heart still bleeding .. Now , I will always go church .. I think I need god so much now , I need to learn how to be patient .. how to smile in real with you'll guys .. and I know no one love it also never mind , because I know GOD it love us anyone .. even you're evil or angel heart .. GOD still hope one day you will changed to be angel :'D who's is a Cristian much know .. why GOD will die because us .. I always remember why GOD able to be dead cause us .. I don't talk how a long story for Jesus Christ .. but I will always love you GOD .. because our crime you able to be dead ... that's how GOD in love with us ... :')

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